till when?

from my daily memory notebook was written in the date of 8-11-2016

.......

here I'm again on the soufa alone (newly out of disease) with loneliness in my heart, not only in the air. With large list of enemies increases everyday, and list of friends that loss one name everyday.

Cold, rain this the situation out there behind the glass of the big window. And a lot of loneliness storm in the mind. 

On the soufa with books all around, music played in the background, with no fast heart beats, no love in the air, no shining eyes. only me and memories and dreams of the coming days.

one question in the mind: 

till when this will go on?

            till when I will have the power for this??

- always? I hope!

#by_me