一回も正しくない

Sometimes I feel like crying and not. "Not", because a part of me prefer to feel always down than to feel the fall, maybe. So it tries to make me believe that nothing's gonna improve.
And sometimes, maybe just sometimes but sometimes, it gets what it wants.

あたしのこと…好きの？

Tonight is not a good night to have me around, drunk.
At least I'm not drunk enought to let me be more fooled by the illusion than I've already.

- "It's gonna be ok, you don't have to worry."

A hand over my shoulder, one step far from what I can see, behind the alcohol's mist, a voice whisper.
- It's ok, mate, you'll get used to it.
- 毎回、間違う。
- It's ok, trust me. That's what you'll get over. Look, I have something for you.
- 一回も正しくない。
A hand has something before my eyes. A smiling mask.
- It won't always be smiling, but here's it. Wear it.
And what can I do? Give up cause I've been mistaken again?
- Gimme that

Definitely, tonight is not a good night to have me around, drunk.
Now come, night. Make me forget.